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Much time has passed since pen has last conveyed thought and feeling of mind. Sadness ruled the past, the dye was cast, now the stars have realigned.

My mindset changed, a new point of view, opportunity all around, my best efforts no longer go amiss, in my sorrows I’ll no longer be drowned.

I’ve laughed with friends, sang to the stars, like a sunbeam I light up the sky, I write this now with love in my heart, for the girl that used to cry.

No longer do I fail to see the joy that life can bring, it’s in the bird song that haults my dreams, what playful songs they sing.

It’s dancing to a silly beat to which only you can relate, you can dance in glee to any melody when you don’t discriminate.

It’s funny when I look back to see when my mindset made a shift, because it didn’t happen overnight, my mood didn’t suddenly just lift.

It was many days of small, subtle change, which in some ways might sound strange, but I thank the goddess herself with grace for this life I would never exchange.

So to you my friend, when there is no end to the sadness you feel in your soul, look back on this and don’t dismiss, there’s always a way out of the hole.

horreurscopes:

do you ever get into one of those moods where your heart aches and longs for something so deeply but you dont know what and your heart is like a stubborn toddler screaming i want it !!!! please give it to me !!!! And you’re desperately like i don’t know what kind of emotionally fulfilling experience to give you at 3 PM on a Wednesday !!!!!!!!!

It’s easy to get lost in the cloud of grey that surrounds a sad mind. It’s easier still to allow yourself to simply cry and un-tie everything that is holding you together. But you are not easy my friend. You are strong. You are fierce, brave and loyal. But most of all you are kind. Remember this.

Love resides in your heart. Love for the world. Love for the flora and fauna. Love for everything that is, was and ever will be. It is this love and light inside you that causes you such pain. But love is the greatest gift, and to share that love without prejudice, judgement or bias is the rarest ability of them all. Remember this.

I am less emotional today. Red has started to flow which comforts me to know. Although I cannot say I didn’t cry as this would be a lie; what I can say is I do not want to die, and I will not say good-bye. But will I remember this?

teethagoddess:

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I cried a lot today. I am feeling emotional, weak and pre-destined to fall back into old habits. I cannot afford the life I have fallen into through no fault of my own. I do not wish to fall down the rabbit hole again yet I feel it pulling at me at every moment of the day.

I cried a lot today. I cannot pin the problem down to one issue that I may deal with. When I try to look into my thoughts too see what bring me pain, the only answer I can give is life. Life brings me pain. What life has become. What it always was. What it will never be. What I see.

I cried a lot today. I do not understand how so many live on in this world with blinkers, without seeing how truly messed up it is. Likewise I understand why those that have seen and cannot un-see may choose to end the pain. I must remain strong even though I am alone. For who can you count on but yourself? Who can bring you back, if not yourself?

I cried a lot today.

But I shall not cry tomorrow.

Instead of just sharing pictures, I will also simply write. I have no other outlets so I fall back to this one, where I may sink into the ocean of pictures and words, so that they may drown out the complete unimportance of me. Whether you choose to follow my story or not, thank you for reading nonetheless.

I’ve not used this platform since I was 18 years old. I now come back and look back at the page I have created and the images that were bestowed upon it by myself. It shocks me to see who I was. The girl that could have been. The girl that loved herself and others down to the last nipple bump. The power she felt, and the confidence she rode. The girl I I was before…

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